A Girl
There is a naked woman lying behind me that I may love and there is no way to tell her what I need.
The morning awakens with the sound of people using the kitchen. The sun has yet to rise. And I sit here, in a way, more lonely than I have ever been.
A woman lies behind me, that I may Love,
…and I simply can’t escape my shell.
I never quite know who I am when it comes to you. I know I like you a great deal. i think i’m falling in love. But only sometimes you’re hard to read. You’re something beyond me, that’s why you’re real,
so I can’t think what to
say
to you.
I’m an easily confused boy. And you’re not helping any.
What am I to think? There you are, naked, sleeping in my bed. And I’m sore from you and I just want some time alone.
But with you near.
I have no way of being normal.
I am forgone to touch.
But you should give me a chance.
If you leave me now, I can’t give you things,
teach you things,
Knowledges.
And you will have missed me.
That may be your mistake.
But for me, unable, I will once again be touched by
Noone.
Once again I will be
Devoid
And you will have gone a long way
towards squelching my humanity
…and the funny thing about is that I can’t care.
I can only wish that I’m right.
I could love you even after her.
A day later and there are things that you tell me.
And I know there is no tomorrow
with you.
I really thought you were something, maybe, past my next fucking breath. But you are gone from me forever,
before I’ve exhaled.
I’ve been trying to cry, to get you out of me. But I can’t, too much shock. Still distant. Unfathomable.
This world is anguish at your passing. Why do I keep going on? It is evident that I will never really be happy.
The day draws neigh that I just won’t care and I will end myself. I wait for that
strength
with my humanity rebelling.
Only a little longer and everything will be better,
but I know I’m lying
and
I think that I’m
in love
with you.
But…goodbye. Goodbye, my dear. Ado.
How was
this
the end?